of doctors and maps - Snippet two
Where am I with respect to technology? Represented in it? Protected from it? Accessing it? And is my doctor the knower who will use the instrument of technology to heal me?
Why then does he feel like an apologetic outsider, unnecessary to this process, merely the public relations man as I lie here, surrounded by the linear accelerator? Why do the women in the planning room, wired through their scans with the accelerator, smiling benevolently at him, seem more at home, more with me, within me?